1 April..


Sorry its been too long since then..A lots of things happen, but it is common and usual, you know..routine stuff..except for getting busy more and more, I often call the exam as a war, becoz we are really in a war, with ourself..Fighting to awaken our true potential from lazyness, from everythings..However, in the past month, I mean the month that I’ve been born..March..A lot of things happen in that month..

love_is____appreciation__by_hjstory-d30yhxhNot only the good things, but bad things do occur..its all about love, about life, and about ourself..With love, dishonest, lack of trust, and a lot of aspect really can kill love. This phenomenon really happen to my close friend, here. In my way of thought, being in love is not simply for, you know, for fun, for “requirement”, for showing off, and so on. It is the first phase for us to learn, how to be responsible, how to control everything in us, patience, anger, sad, and every human emotion that all of us can ever think of. Its also teach us the various of things, learning how to understand each other, put ourselves in each others shoes, handle with emotion, how to be a good listener, and so on. For me, that is my perception when we love someone. For example, look at my big bro, both of them. They love their couple, loving each other, get married, having a son, and facing all of the trouble together, although it is not as simple as talking or writing like this, but that is love..Commitment, serious, this relationship is not as simple as we think. At the time we were alone, far away from our couple, starting to get bored, lonely and so on, we will start thinking of, “I better find someone, you know, just for fun, my girlfriend wouldn’t know. After im done, im gonna ditch her..”


That’s is mostly what we always face in this days. Just for fun, for fun and for fun. We didn’t think the consequences of our act, we didn’t put ourselves in their shoes. Now lets try to put ourselves in theirs..When we found out our beloved one with someone else, happily ever after, looking at us like we don’t exist in his eyes, like the relationship never exist at all. Now feel it, and then think. Is it hurt? Being fooled by the others? Is it common? Is it cool? Is it FUN? Well im not qualify for all of this, but as a human, a man, this is my perception..Before we are doing some things which we may regret for, think twice, or don’t do it at all. Good partner in life are really hard to find, believe me, I know. But when we had it, some of people still unsatisfied for what they already have. What more that we wanted? What else? In the earlier phase in relationship, of course we have a desire in our selves, me as a man also included. We want to hold our couple’s hand, we want to take her to watch late movie, gazing the star together, walking to nowhere together, and so on, like in the romance movie that we always dream of.

love_is____hiding_together__by_hjstory-d31qqgdHey im being honest here, I also want to do all of that, but please, awake..awake from that dream, that is really unreal. In our country, our family have a dignity, maruah, and we, as a Malaysian, known by all, with our kindness in our heart, our morality, sopan santun, berbudi pekerti. Of course we can do all of that, but in reality, it is very wrong. We still have Allah swt, our religion, we have our own lines that we need to keep stay out of it. Do not ever step out of the line, because when you do, lu pikir la sendiri..So, some man keep using this as excuse to find another spare tire, not all of them of course.They said, “susah lah, ini tak bleh, itu tak bleh, nak keluar malam tak bleh, nak pegang tangan susah, ini susah, itu susah, rimaslah..Baik cari seseorang yang boleh buat semua tuh, boleh bawa keluar jalan jalan, pegang2 tangan and so on, lagi best..”But do you realize who is talking when you are really thought of this matter, it is not you anymore, its your nafsu, Nafs..So when you do thinking of this, think back..Why do you want her, to be your life partner? To be your fun couple? To be your “Touch n Go” partner? Choose wisely..And think deeply, what are our desire actually.


Well im saying this also for myself, as a reminder, there is a lot of things that happens around me, and I intend to make all of it as a life lesson,as a reminder. And of course, sharing is caring. I care for you, so that’s why I share. So, still wondering what I am trying to say? Well don’t, it is simple and easy. Just think it is, like this. All of us do want a muslimah, or wanita solehah to be our wife right? Well, of course she must be kind, can take care of us whenever we cant, caring, and loving us. But ask our selves, are we deserve it? Look at our self, are we ready enough?Are we good enough? Because, relationship, marriage, is not as simple like in the movie, or in the novel..Love ourselves before we love the other, when we do that, we will learn a lot of things believe me, not only love, but respect as well, responsibility, patience, and all..But of course, we are not a perfect being, we are just human, from clay, earth, given a soul/ roh and walking in this earth finding our reason to live..We are made each other, to complete each other, to walk in His path, leading to His path, and of course, aiming for redhaNya, insyaAllah.


I really don’t know why I writing this entry, but, I just feel like it, sometime He want to test us, with a lot of obstacle in life, just to make sure we are back to Him again, praying for help, for guidance, for our weaknesses, becoz it is already our nature. Whenever we feel unable to do anything regardless to the problem we faced, kita tawakkal, and give the rest to Allah swt. We pray for peace in our heart, that’s why He give us the test, to make us realize the purpose of us living and walking in this very earth, the purpose of our existence, for what purpose you say? To be the loyal servant to Him, because that is us, our real selves.  Well I guess, that’s all for tonight, enough with blabbering and night walking, get back to sleep, but keep it in mind, our experience is our teacher..Life lesson is an enhancement to our humanity, to improve ourselves, to be a better person in the future, insyaAllah..


Michael Buble–Home

Michael Buble–Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
‘Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home


P/S: I miss ma home, ma mum, and ma kangkong, miss them soo much dT . Tb

Today is not History, its Mystory and Herstory..d^^,b


Today is really a special day actually, a lil bit historical, memorable, unforgettable and embarrassing event which happen in my life storyline..Maybe its just a plain story for some people but, for me its really change my life forever..Well, this is the day that I met my Kangkong after all of the journey for almost many years..Actually I met her a long time ago, first I seen her when I was still a kids, and we are at the same class together, she is the bright girl in my class, a lil bit shy and silent, yet so genius..For your information, we were at the same school since at S.R.J.K (c) Cheng Min, we were barely close at that time, just a hi hi bye bye friend, just like when we met, hi sal, bye sal…Yeahh just like that. Love is a strange things isn’t? It’s a lil bit nostalgic actually, but im sure miss that old days..

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Then we grew up together, but still, not as close as right now, and I was continue finding my lost identity and so was she..We enter the S.M.K St Michael together, at form 1, we were at the same class together, hihihihihi. Its funny actually, seeing her wearing tudung at the first tym, but yeahh she did it until this very moment, syukur alhamdulillah. And then form 2-3 we were separated and then united again under form 4A until 5A, and yes, I was still searching for her at that time although she is really in front of my eyes..I was trying to find someone but I failed, so I ignore this feeling and continue to live on just like usual. Yet we were so close, seeing each other everyday, hi hi and bye bye every single day..Then after finished SPM, once again we were entering the same school for Form 6 at SMK Muhibbah but in the different class. But then she got offer from government to work for them at Hospital Kinabatangan, then she let go Form6 and accept that offer.

DSCN2510For me, life goes on after that, still searching and keep on searching, continue life like usual, with help from all of my jingkil’s friend, I managed to live this life wildly and happily..You know, goin crazy and stuff, just like the normal kids..But then one day, I met her actually, at the Sandakan Town, yupz..that’s my birth place..First I met her, I saw her walking alone but I didn’t greet her cuz I thought she was in a hurry or sumthing cuz she really didn’t saw me at that time..At that time, tetiber jew aku bermonolog sensorang, ehh itu c sal laa, tia sangka dapat jumpa lagik dea..But that’s was just my feeling, you know, just like missing the old friend. But the second time I met her, this time it was sumthin inside, sumthing unexplainable..This time I met her with her mother, walking at the town, maybe goin out for shopping..So I say hi sal, long tym no see, you know..the same conversation routine, but deep in me, its actually sumthing already..I don’t why but yes, its dup dap dup dap..Then after that small talk, I continue to walk to Pasar to meet my mum actually, there’s sum bisnes but I already forgot what it is.

DSCN2518 (2)Then, on my way going home, to the bus station, I met her and her mother again, what a coincidence..Then as usual, ehh kao lagik, hihihihihiihi..Back at home, suddenly I feel..emm..like missing to talk to her again, I don’t why but its started there..Ohyaa, I forgot to tell you, at that time, I was already at UiTM, semester 3 maybe. And then you know, information disseminate very fast with FB, I saw her profile and I add her as friend, and so we starting to contacting each other by facebook, first by commenting her photo, I still remember that photo, wawawawawa. You know how was I at that time, a teaser and a bully, just like to teasing with sum funny words, then I created this name for her, “Kangkong Lenggang”. Why kangkong lenggang you ask? Suka ati aku laa, wawawawawawa, then she call me Kobez yg begulik gulik, ahahahahahahaha, and that name was embedded in our relationship till this very moment, ahahahahahahahahahaha..Cinta sayur sayuran, says one of my friend, hikhikhikhik..

DSCN2559But we still not official just yet, I mean our relationship, not until this day, back at that previous year, exactly at 8pm sumthin, I say those magic words to her, digitally, through Yahoo Messenger.. You know, that 3 magic words..well of course maybe some of you will says, that is not gentleman, you should face to face with her, but we were so far from each other, I am here, at Shah Alam, and she is at Kinabatangan, Sabah, well this is the only way, better than letter perhaps..Responds? well, ask her, hihihihihihi. Maybe she taught I was playing or just teasing her like always at that time, but she didn’t know how hard I am to say those words, then I told her to wait for me until I finish my meeting with my team at that time, you know, assignment stuff..And after I comeback, surprisingly, she really wait for me at YM, well, I told myself at that time, I really have to say it, otherwise I gonna lose her forever..

DSCN2638Well you see, love only come once in your life, once you let it go, its really hard to make it come again, if it did comeback, its not the same anymore..So I said it, and then her answer change our life together..Well that is my story, there so much blank page to write, and our journey still so far away. This gift from Allah swt, this feeling, rasa rindu nih, rasa sayang, rasa cinta, semuanya kurniaanNya. I still remember one very important question that I ask her, last year I recall, I ask her this..Do you know, in my heart, you were in which place? tempat 1? tempat 2? tempat 3? tempat 4? Then surprisingly her answer is correct and yes, even in her heart, I was in fourth place too..So what is first place you ask? 1. Allah swt, 2. Nabi Muhammad s.a.w 3. Ibu dan Bapa, and then there is me and her at the fourth place. And today is our anniversary, to my kangkong lenggang, if you read this, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..d^^,b

kangkong lenggang

3P di sana sinunnn d^^,b part 1


Ntah nape malam nih tangan trasa gatal nak bukak pic2 lama kat pc nih, tetiber jumpe pic sewaktu keja dengan Prestariang masa dulu dulu, nostalgik sangat2..Ingat lagi masa first interview, abang aku sebenarnya yang merekomenkan keje ne untuk aku masa cuti semester tahun 2009, sebelum semester yang kedua tue habis, abang aku suruh aku call bos dier kat prestariang dulu untuk cari keje part time, then aku pon call laa en Azhar tue, alhamdulillah kebetulan Ajau (nama panggilan en Azhar) masa tue nak cari admin exec tuk team dia kat UMS Sabah.


Ohya lupa nak perkenalkan 3P ni ape, 3P stands for Program Pentauliahan Professional, which is a very good program indeed. This program really produced a lot of undergraduate with extra multitasking skill and softskill. Program nih memang mendapat banyak sambutan di UMS, dan pada pendapat saya sendiri, student yang terpilih sepatutnya lebih menghargai program program seperti ini kerana ini untuk kebaikan mereka juga. 15732_205542624793_732079793_3177785_3146438_nAntara prgram program yang ditawarkan dalam masa sebulan tuh ialah Microsoft ASP. Net, which is taught by Mr Bambang fanny indarto, and Mr Adriyunus from Indonesia, adobe flash by Mr Iim Rustandi, adobe dreamweaver by Ms Puspa, also from Indonesia,Microsoft SQL by Mr Tekad Matulatan, Network + by Mr Patrick and Mr Sivaneshan,  all of them is really pro as a trainer and at the same time, mesra gituu..Well, all of us have a great time at KK together, imagine, we live at the Hotel Grand Borneo for almost 2 months, which is fully sponsored by Prestariang, syukur alhamdulillah..Pengalaman pertama dan pengalaman yang paling menyeronokkan.


Just imagine, waking up in a expensive hotel room, everyday, and having breakfast at that hotel too,and its free!! which is very cool and awesome..But in a long period of time, making that as a routine in daily life also make us feel boring. 15732_205542559793_732079793_3177776_4168959_nBut that is not the main point here, working with prestariang, well, changes my life a little. There is many experience that I gain from the workfield, especially when working along with the best technician at UMS, Mohd Saifuddin Sairin, a very talented guy that I ever met, well he is the one who teach me a little things with networking and so on. Hoping to met him at KK, and learning new things again, hahahahaha..


Well, ilmu tidak akan pernah mencukupi walau sepanjang mana usia kita sekalipon. At the worksite, I also learn to enhance my softskill, you know, communicating with people, which is really my weaknesses. Well, my boss, Ajau, train me at that whole month, everyday, to gain more confidence in myself. Actually im very in a large debt with Ajau, he is just like my master, my guru and my boss..He teach me lot from a lot of aspect..From work to spiritual enhancement, aku banyak mendalami ilmu agama sewaktu bekerja dengan 3P nih, that’s why its change me a lot. Syukur alhamdulillah I am what I am right now.











Nikmat Kesihatan..

Assalamualaikum dan selamat petang, salam jumaat buat semua..Banyak yang nak dikongsikan sebenarnya tapi, takpela, satu persatu k..Lets start with this one, nikmat Allah swt yang dikurniakan kepada kita.

Dua nikmat agung yang diabaikan kebanyakan orang ialah kesihatan dan masa lapang. (Hadis riwayat Imam Bukhari, Tirmidzi dan Ibn Majah)

Kat sini ade satu crita bergambar, jom ikutinya bersama sama..Ini cerita benar dan berlaku di Bahrain. Ianya boleh merubah hidup kita, cara kita berfikir serta maksud hidup kita.

Ianya adalah kisah seorang lelaki dari Bahrain yang bernama Ibrahim Nasser. Dia telah lumpuh sepenuhnya sejak lahir dan hanya boleh mengerakkan kepala dan jari-jari. Pernafasannya juga terpaksa menggunakan alat bantuan pernafasan.


Ibrahim telah menanam keinginan untuk bertemu dengan Sheik Nabeel Al-Wadi seorang ulama’ dari Kuwait.  Ayah Ibrahim telah memohon kepada Syeikh Nabeel Al-Wadi agar dapat menunaikan hajat anaknya Ibrahim untuk berjumpa dengannya.

1 Ini gambar Syeikh Nabeel di Lapangan Terbang dalam perjalanan untuk berjumpa dengan Ibrahim.

Ibrahim tersangat gembira dapat berjumpa dengan Sheikh Nabeel bila beliau membuka pintu biliknya. Kegembiraannya  dapat digambarkan pada raut wajahnya sehingga sukar baginya untuk berkata-kata pada mulanya.


Saat-saat bila Syeikh Nabeel masuk ke dalam bilik Ibrahim.


Dan ini adalah wajah kegembiraan Ibrahim bila dapat berjumpa dengan Syeikh Nabeel.

Perhatikan alat pernafasan dileher Ibrahim…dia tidak dapat bernafas secara normal.


Syeikh Nabeel mencium dahi Ibrahim.


Ibrahim bersama-sama ayah, bapa saudaranya dan Syeikh Nabeel.

Syeikh  Nabeel dan Ibrahim berkongsi cerita tentang dakwah melalui internet dan segala macam usaha yang diperlukan olehnya. Mereka juga berkongsi cerita tentang perkara lain.


Semasa perbualan mereka , Syeikh Nabeel telah bertanyakan satu soalan yang telah menyebabkan Ibrahim tidak dapat menahan tangisan lantas menghamburkan air mata.


Ibrahim tidak dapat menahan air mata yang mengalir apabila mengenangkan pengalaman yang menyedihkan.


Syeikh Nabil mengusapkan air mata Ibrahim.


Tahukah anda apakah soalan yang telah menyebabkan Ibrahim tidak dapat menahan kesedihan sehingga menangis sepuas-puasnya ?

Syeikh Nabeel telah bertanya kepada beliau, sekiranya Allah memberikan dia nikmat kesihatan sehingga dia boleh berjalan, apakah yang akan dilakukan olehnya ?

Mendengar Soalan ini, Ibrahim telah menangis sepuas-puasnya sehingga ayahnya, bapa saudaranya dan kesemua orang di dalam bilik itu termasuk juga jurugambar telah menangis .

Dia telah menjawab, demi Allah jika saya boleh berjalan maka saya akan menunaikan sholat saya  di masjid dengan penuh gembira dan akan menggunakan segala nikmat kesihatan untuk mendapat redha Allah.

Akhir kata dari saya, wahai saudara-saudara sekelian Allah telah memberikan kita semua nikmat kesihatan dan kita semua boleh berjalan dengan tidak ada masalah. Adakah kita menunaikan sholat kita di masjid ataupun kita hanya membuang masa berjam-jam di depan TV dan komputer ?

Air Tangan orang yang tak Solat

Patutlah kita masing2 kepala batu & degil…suka sangat makan roti canai kat mamak…tak sembahyang tu satu hal…ntah2 mamak tu hindu….lagi parahh… Semua orang tahu bahawa kalau meninggalkan solat tu, adalah dosa besar, dan malahan lebih hina drpd khinzir..Betapa hinanya kita kalau meninggalkan solat spt yg dikisahkan pd zaman Nabi Musa A. S.


Begini kisahnya…pada zaman Nabi Musa, ada seorang lelaki yg sudah berumahtangga , dia tak de zuriat lalu, terdetik dlm hati dia (nazar), “kalau aku dpt anak, aku akan minum air kencing anjing hitam. ” Nak dijadikan cerita, Allah pun kurniakan isteri si lelaki tadi pun hamil dan melahirkan anak. Bila dah dpt anak, laki ni pun runsing… Dia dah nazar nak kena minum air kencing anjing hitam. Syariat pd zaman Nabi Musa berbeza dgn syariat yg turun utk umat Nabi Muhammad. Kalau umat Nabi Muhammad, nazar benda yg haram, maka tak payah buat, tapi kena denda(dam) atau sedekah..

cat1Tapi, kalau zaman Nabi Musa, brg siapa bernazar, walaupun haram, tetap kena laksanakan nazar tu..lalu, si lelaki yg dapat anak tu, dgn susah hatinya, pun pegilah bertemu dgn Nabi-Allah Musa.. Dan menceritakan apa yg terjadi ke atas dirinya..lalu, Nabi Musa menjawab bahawa lelaki tu x payah minum air kencing anjing hitam, tapi akan minum air yg lebih hina dr air kencing anjing hitam. Nabi Musa perintahkan lelaki tersebut utk pergi menadah air yg jatuh dr bumbung rumah orang yg meninggalkan sembahyang dan minum air tu.

1 (24)Lalu, lelaki tu pun senang hati, menjalankan apa yg diperintahkan oleh Nabi Musa tadi… Lihat.. betapa hinanya org yg meninggalkan solat, sampai dikatakan air yg jatuh dr bumbung rumah dia, lbh hina dr air kencing anjing hitam..Itu baru air bumbung rumah, belum air tangan lagi.. Menyentuh bab air tangan ni, selalu kita suka makan masakan ibu, isteri kita. Jadi, kepada muslimat sekalian, peliharalah solat , sbb kalau meninggalkan solat (kalau tak uzur), air tangan akan menitik ke dalam basuhan makanan, nasi, dsb..anak-anak, suami pulak yg akan makan makanan yg dimasak. takkan nak biarkan suami & anak2 gelap hati minum air tangan org yang tinggalkan solat..tak gamakkan?

Tapi.. lain pulak halnya dgn kita ni.. pagi petang..mamak!! teh tarik satu, roti canai satu..ada pulak segelintir tukang masak yg tak solat..kita pun makan bekas air tangan dia..gelap lah hati kita.. sbb tu liat nak buat keja2 yg baik. beware apa yg kita makan… betapa beratnya amalan solat ni, hatta Allah syariatkan solat kepada Nabi Muhammad melalui Isra’ Mikraj, sedangkan kewajipan2 lain memadai diutus melalui Jibril a. s. Ketika saat Rasulullah nazak, sempat baginda berpesan kpd Saidina Ali (&utk umat Islam) , “As-solah as Solah wa amalakat aimanukum.” maknanya,”Solat, solat jgn sekali kamu abaikan dan peliharalah org2 yg lemah di bawah tanggunganmu.”


Jadi, sama2lah kita pelihara solat kita, dr segi zahir & batinnya, kerana amalan solatlah amalan yg mula2 akan ditimbang di neraca Mizan kelak.


Syukur dipanjatkan ke atas Ilahi, alhamdulillah, proses temuramah telah berjalan lancar dengan jayanya. Log perjalanan: Kelas A&I start jam 2pm, ader presentation, kitorang second presenter, then kitorang mintak permission kat Puan Suriana tuk keluar awal untuk projek Oral History, Alhamdulillah beliau izinkan dan kitorang keluar jam 3.45pm dan sempat menyeludup keluar zana, wawawawawawa, takpe laaa, takde pembelajaran gak, presentation jew..

VLUU L100, M100  / Samsung L100, M100

Then aku ngan daia pon g laa bus stop, tunggu abang teksi yg daia dah tempah tuh, mulanya tunggu lame, pastuh call abg tuh, dier off hp plak, aku skali miscall krdt aku tinggal 8sen, then c daia miscall berkali kali, sampai nek tensen kitorang..Kitorang tpaksa gune plan B, tunggu bas ke Giant, then naik teksi kat sana..Tapi dugaan melanda lagi, kali nih, kitorang tunggu sejam setengah kat bus stop tuh, akhirnyer sampai jugak bas jam 5 lebih camtuh, dah nak jam 6 kot, sampai kat Giant gerenti dah jam 6 lebih dah..

Gorillaz___Group_image_by_2DarkThen kitorang pon melilau carik teksi kat Giant tuh, alhamdulillah dapat jumper pacik teksi yg sorang nih, kitorang gamble jew naik teksi tuh, walaupon pacik teksi tuh cam blurr2 tengok alamat rumah Tuan Haji Mukhtar Ramli kat area Subang tuh, dalam hati doa jew, so kitorang adventure ngan pacik teksi tuh laaa, alhamdulillah sampai jugak kami ke tempat yg dituju, masa dah mnunjukkan pukul 7 lebih, dah terlewat daripada jadual asal, appointment kitorang sepatutnyer jam 5pm tapi tlajak sampai jam 7lebih, mmg kitorang malu arr sebab tak punctual, padahal baru jew ikot modul n dengar ceramah pasal punctuality..

Tuan Haji tuh dah tunggu dah depan pintu umah dier, lantas mempelawa kami berdua masuk dan menjemput aku untuk solat asar kat umah dier, sebab aku tak sempat solat asar tadik. Bas n teksi punyer pasal laa, aiyooo..Be_careful_by_antontangAlhamdulillah lepas menunaikan solat asar, Tuan Haji tanpa berlengah lengah lagi terus memberitahu kami untuk memulakan temuramah kerana kami dah terlewat dari jadual asal. Then kami pon memulakan temuramah tersebut, awal nyer biasa biasa jew, tapi biler dah masuk bahagian pengalaman dier mase kat Arkib Sabah dahulu, aku dah makin excited dah, pengalaman beliau sememangnya amat berharga dan berbaloi kami memlih beliau sebagai tokoh OH kami, memang kami merasa puas hati laa walaupun tape/ kaset meragam dan mbuat bunyi bising dan handphone aku yg aku gunakan untuk merakam video temuramah tuh habis bateri..

Kepada awek aku yg baca nih, aku minta maaf sangat2 sebab tak mesej atau call sebab tak dapat, bateri kong mase tuh..Ini lah jugak antara dugaan2 hari ini yg kami lalui, tapi banyak ilmu dan informasi yg kami extract daripada Tuan Haji Mukhtar Ramli, dan banyak informasi yang kami dapat membantu dalam pelajaran kami, sebab semuanya berkaitan dengan rekod dan pengurusan nyer, real experience..


So overall, kitorang puas sangat2, tinggal nak siapkan transkrip lagi nih, aku walaupun penat baru balik, aku masih terkesan lagi dengan temubual tadi tuh, kitorang habis temubual tuh dalam jam 9 lebih, dekat jam 10pm, then tunggu pacik teksi tuh datang jempot kitorang, sampai jam 11pm, then pacik tuh pon datang, syukur sekali lagi, alhamdulillah kitorang berdua beruntung sangat2 pacik teksi tuh datang, syukur alhamdulillah…Kalu tak, tpakse tido kat pondok pengawal tuh sampai esok pagi, aduhai, nasib baikkk..Tuh jew laaa log perjalanan kitorang hari nih, we are so satisfy for what we have done so far, credit to Khaty@ Khadeeja yg memperkenalkan kitorang dengan Tuan Haji Mukhtar Ramli, alhamdulillah..


Left for dead..

This is not the PC games left 4 dead stuff alrite? its just a words that I feel right at this moment..Left for dead..Ditinggalkan untuk mati..of_stars_and_moon_craters_by_isip_bataYupz, tonite is very..emm..I don’t know how to express this feelings, lonely?? emm..Silent??ehhhh, Missing someone? yeaah that’s a bit right too..I don’t know man, something happen lately..like a lot..and my head didn’t functioning very much..I really don’t want to keep angry at all the time, I want to smile like always, coz it’s the only way I feel much alive than before..But situation that I got into..I really don’t know how to write this things here..But, I want to remind my self about some old saying..”Ada 2 perkara yang wajib kita ingat ingatkan, dan ada 2 perkara yang wajib kita lupakan..2 perkara yang wajib kita ingat ingatkan ialah 1. Dosa kita terhadap seseorang dan juga 2. Jasa baik/ kebaikan yang orang lain pernah buat kat kita…2 perkara yang wajib kita lupakan ialah  1. Kebaikan yang pernah kita lakukan kepada seseorang dan jugak 2. Dosa/ keburukan yang orang lain pernah buat kat kita..”

I really love this old quote, its remind me how to forgive and smile..But sometime how hard I try to forgive, my heart keeps sulking and say no, I don’t know why this is happening to me, I just want to be happy..I really hate to see that satans laughing at me while watching me angry..my_vision_satan_by_gordototeIn Islam belief, When a person is angry, a satan will come closer to him/her and persuade him/her to angry more while laughing..This is because anger is the main door in our heart which accessible by satan and its only accessible when we are angry..I guess we should put some swipe card authentication to prevent unauthorized satan from entering our heart..How to?? I know some old method, and its 100% working, but sometime for some person, its hard to apply it (susah nak amal)..

What izzit??hihihihihihihi, its so easy actually..After solat/ prayer, whether its sunat or wajib, amalkan Subhannallah x33, Alhamdulillah x33 and lastly Allahuakhbar x33, well you can add on some more powerful zikir after that such as Lailahaillallah x33.. Well for someone who seek forgiveness from Allah swt should add on Astagfirullahalazhim x33..Well, before sleeping, we also can apply this zikir, amek wudhu first, then go to your bed, you can sit in a comfortable position, then zikir… and then try to sleep, insyaAllah you’ll feel great in the next morning..don’t forget to read doa before sleep and after sleeping too alrite? Coz not everyday we will have a chance to wake up like usual..


And I also read some artikel at Solusi, a very islamic fun reading magazine actually, which says that, carilah 70 alasan sebelum kamu membenci/ marah kepada seseorang, dan jika kamu masih marah, salahkan hati kamu sendiri..First when I read this article I says wowww!! This is interesting, as I read more and more, rupa rupanya, pada zaman sahabat2 nabi dulu, sebelum dan selepas kewafatan Nabi junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, para sahabat ini, sebelum memperkatakan ataupun membincangkan sesuatu tentang sesuatu yang mereka tidak pasti, mereka akan berfikir panjang2 dahulu sebelum berkata kata, kadangkala sampai memakan masa berhari hari..Means what??


Well it’s a moral lesson actually, before we speak something, and before we express something, we need to THINK..Izzit true? izzit worth it? can I hurt others with this kind of speech? Izzit necessary? Why I need to? Think before you says something, just like the old malay saying, Terlajak Perahu, walaupun takde gear box, buleh reverse jugak, tapi terlajak kata, padahnya lu sendiri pikiaq laa..Or Metropolitan sayings, “Sebab mulut badan binasa, sebab mulut jugak nasik habis..”well its pretty true..So, kesimpulannyaa, sometime, we made mistakes, sometime its unforgivable, Teda maaf bagimu..some says..But when we do, I mean, its really our mistakes, apologizes, but even if its not our mistakes, apologizes too, its worth it you know, no need for that ego, coz kalu nak turutkan ego dan keras kepala, sampai ke liang lahad masih lagi saling membenci..When that’s happen, well, as your feet reach the padang masyar..Take a good look at yourself, and ask yourself, izzit worth it? Just for some really small matter? Izzit? well, its already to late, when we are already at that place..


Tetiber teringat Dr Haliza plak, tadi kan aku lewat masuk kelas, Sleeping issues, lewat giler giler laa, tapi dok gagahkan hati jugak pergi ke kelas, then Dr just look at me while smiling, why are you late? and I says, lambat bangunlaa puan, then she replied with a bit smile in her face, “Better late than never..” Biar terlewat, daripada tak datang langsung..Well, at that time, I say to myself, this things cannot happen anymore..Its torturing me inside..I really have to work this out, I mean my sleeping issues..Ehh, where were we? dah jauh tersesat nih, apepon, to all my friend out there who read this, im so sorry, deep from my heart, I don’t want to gadoh2, I apologize for all the things that I’ve done, I didn’t mean it, even if I look like angry, I really didn’t meant it, I swear..I love all my friend, and I don’t want to gadoh2..Becoz to me, if I really want to gadoh, its better to gadoh with each of us holding weapon, and kill each other, becoz when we die, we will not see each other face anymore, before reaching Padang Masyar..So, I sincerely apologize, forgive me, I promise, I try not to do it again..And lastly but not least, Think before you speak, Apologize, and Smile, think +ve coz theres nothing to be angry about..Its all in our heart, ALL IZ WELL, ALL IZ WELL, ALL IZ WELL..


Oittt, dah March???

Nih laa tajuk perbualan aku ngan awek aku smalam, tapi bukan tuh yg aku nak critaa, biler dah masuk bulan mac nih, bagi aku, byk peristiwa bersejarah dalam bulan nih, antaranyaa 20hb, 21hb dan 22hb, hihihihihihi, tahu tak ape maksud 3hari nih? 20hb nih, ialah hari dimana aku meluahkan perasaan cinta aku kat awek aku, miss kangkong lenggang, hikhikhikhikhikhikhik, bapak merah tlinga aku tym tuh, wawawawawa, nasib bek laa awek aku nih terima aku gak, kalu tak, ntahlah kat maner lagi aku nak cari tulang rusuk aku nih, awek aku kate, tuh kat pasar tuh banyak kangkong macik tuh jual, aku slamber jew laa cakap, kangkong lenggang macik tuh tarak jual, satu jew kat universe nih, lagipon archivist pentingkan uniqueness and authenticity, pastuh awek aku gerenti jawab, ngellehh, tanam tebu di tepi bibir, wawawawawawa.. 21hb nih plak, hari dimana mak aku melahirkan aku kedunia nih, dan 22hb, aku didaftarkan ke hospital dan mak aku amek surat kelahiran aku tym tuh..Jadi, baru tahu? Jom ramai2, OOoohhh Baruu Tahuuu..

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3/3/2011, emmm, hari ini hari yg best, tahu tak nape? Tadi kelas cancel, yuhuuuuuoooiii, tapi petang ade klass arrr, kihkihkihkihkihkih…Ingatkan tadi dapat jumpa Dr Haliza nak serahkan soalan OH tuh, tapi dier takde, alahaiiii. Harap2 soalan tuh dapat setel minggu ni jugak, cepat sket siap interview kitorang, yg lain dah siap dah, Khaty n Meera dah siap, ayoyaiii, jeles giler ngan diorang nih. Bulan nih saje, siapkan video mandarin, dokumentari, siapkan assignment incik ARA, Puan Maz n Transkrip OH Dr Haliza, bila fikirkan smua nih, tetiber aku rasa ngantokkk, adoiiii, tolonglaahh, baru jew bangun jam 9am tadi, dah ngantok lagi..Demn..

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Gmbr sbelah nih sijil tamat psekolahan aku kat Chengmin dulu2, kenal tak muka tuh? Kihkihkihkihkihkih, unbelievable? I also didn’t believe it, wawawawawa..Eh, sabtu nih aku ingat nak g umah abg aku arr, nak amek buku mandarin..Eh baru aku tringat, Assignment library lagik, adoiiiii, Evaluating 5book, Indexing and Abstracting, aku bertambah ngantok bila dok pikiaq esaimen2 yg melampau2 nih, ape nak jadi ngan aku nih, k arrr, gonna take nap for half hour, wake me up at 1pm..